Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Goethe as masochist (Lili's Park)

There's no menagerie, I vow,
Excels my Lili's at this minute;
She keeps the strangest creatures in it,
And catches them, She knows not how.
Oh, how they hop, and run, and rave,
And their clipp'd pinions wildly wave,--
Poor Princess, who must all endure
The pangs of love that nought can cure.

What is the fairy's name?--Is't Lili?--Ask not me!
Give thanks to Heaven if She's unknown to thee.

Oh what a cackling, what a shrieking,
When near the door She takes Her stand,
With Her food-basket in Her hand!
Oh what a croaking, what a squeaking!
Alive all the trees
And the bushes appear,
While to Her feet whole troops draw near;
The very fish within, the water clear
Splash with impatience and their heads protrude;
And then She throws around the food
With such a look!--the very gods delighting
(To say nought of beasts). There begins, then, a biting,
A picking, a pecking, a sipping,
And each o'er the legs of another is tripping,
And pushing, and pressing, and flapping,
And chasing, and fuming, and snapping,
And all for one small piece of bread,
To which, though dry, Her fair hands give a taste,
As though it in ambrosia had been plac'd.

And then Her look! the tone
With which She calls: Pipi! Pipi!
Would draw Jove's eagle from his throne;
Yes, Venus' turtle doves, I wean,
And the vain peacock e'en,
Would come, I swear,
Soon as that tone had reach'd them through the air.
E'en from a forest dark had She
Enticed a bear, unlick'd, ill-bred,
And, by Her wiles alluring, led
To join the gentle company,
Until as tame as they was he:
(Up to a certain point, be't understood!)
How fair, and, ah, how good
She seem'd to be! I would have drain'd my blood
To water e'en Her flow'rets sweet.

"Thou sayest: I! Who? How? And where?"--
Well, to be plain, good Sirs--I am the bear;
In a net-apron, caught, alas!
Chain'd by a silk-thread at Her feet.
But how this wonder came to pass
I'll tell some day, if ye are curious;
Just now, my temper's much too furious.

Ah, when I'm in the corner plac'd,
And hear afar the creatures snapping,
And see the flipping and the flapping,
I turn around
With growling sound,
And backward run a step in haste,
And look around
With growling sound.
Then run again a step in haste,
And to my former post go round.

But suddenly my anger grows,
A mighty spirit fills my nose,
My inward feelings all revolt.
A creature such as thou! a dolt!
Pipi, a squirrel able nuts to crack!
I bristle up my shaggy back
Unused a slave to be.
I'm laughed at by each trim and upstart tree
To scorn. The bowling-green I fly,
With neatly-mown and well-kept grass:
The box makes faces as I pass,--
Into the darkest thicket hasten I,
Hoping to 'scape from the ring,
Over the palings to spring!
Vainly I leap and climb;
I feel a leaden spell.
That pinions me as well,
And when I'm fully wearied out in time,
I lay me down beside some mock-cascade,
And roll myself half dead, and foam, and cry,
And, ah! no Oreads hear my sigh,
Excepting those of china made!
But, ah, with sudden power
In all my members blissful feelings reign!
'Tis She who singeth yonder in Her bower!
I hear that darling, darling voice again.
The air is warm, and teems with fragrance clear,
Sings She perchance for me alone to hear?
I haste, and trample down the shrubs amain;
The trees make way, the bushes all retreat,
And so--the beast is lying at Her feet.

She looks at him: "The monster's droll enough!
He's, for a bear, too mild,
Yet, for a dog, too wild,
So shaggy, clumsy, rough!"
Upon his back She gently strokes Her foot;
He thinks himself in Paradise.
What feelings through his seven senses shoot!
But She looks on with careless eyes.
I lick Her soles, and kiss Her shoes,
As gently as a bear well may;
Softly I rise, and with a clever ruse
Leap on Her knee.--On a propitious day
She suffers it; my ears then tickles She,
And hits me a hard blow in wanton play;
I growl with new-born ecstasy;
Then speaks She in a sweet vain jest, I wot
"Allons tout doux! eh! la menotte!
Et faites serviteur
Comme un joli seigneur."
Thus She proceeds with sport and glee;
Hope fills the oft-deluded beast;
Yet if one moment he would lazy be,
Her fondness all at once hath ceas'd.

She doth a flask of balsam-fire possess,
Sweeter than honey bees can make,
One drop of which She'll on Her finger take,
When soften'd by his love and faithfulness,
Wherewith Her monster's raging thirst to slake;
Then leaves me to myself, and flies at last,
And I, unbound, yet prison'd fast
By magic, follow in Her train,
Seek for Her, tremble, fly again.
The hapless creature thus tormenteth She,
Regardless of his pleasure or his woe;
Ha! oft half-open'd does She leave the door for me,
And sideways looks to learn if I will fly or no.

And I--Oh gods! your hands alone
Can end the spell that's o'er me thrown;
Free me, and gratitude my heart will fill;
And yet from heaven ye send me down no aid--
Not quite in vain doth life my limbs pervade:
I feel it! Strength is left me still.

(Johann Wolfgang Goethe, 1775)

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Reader's Diary (Week 8)

In ideal love, as in other forms of masochism, acts of self-abnegation are in fact meant to secure access to the glory and power of the other.
(Benjamin, 1988)

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Femdom Forever

Does everything ends in silent frustration sprayed on a fence in some forgotten dirty backstreet? Or is it a very loud proclamation and public testimony of some happy sub?

Sunday, February 19, 2012

From my dreams of Goddess GINA 4


There is a Lady sweet and kind,
Was never face so pleas'd my mind;
i did but see Her passing by,
And yet i love Her till i die.

Her gesture, motion, and Her smiles,
Her wit, Her voice, my heart beguiles,
Beguiles my heart, i know not why,
And yet i love Her till i die.

Her free behaviour, winning looks,
Will make a lawyer burn his books;
i touch'd Her not, alas! not i,
And yet i love Her till i die.

(Thomas Ford, 1607)

Friday, February 17, 2012

Slavery in Freedom, Freedom in Slavery

Do you remember a story of Philemon and Onesimus? Philemon had a slave named Onesimus. Onesimus took a chance one day and run for his freedom, just to find out that there was a slavery in freedom and there was a freedom in slavery.  When he was a slave, he didn't worried about where he was going to sleep or what he was going to eat. His owner had to take care of that. As a free man he became a slave to appetite and slave to economy. And all he wanted as a free man was to return to his master as a slave.
Our society is built on strong desire for freedom and people pride themselves on being free. They think they are free. But are they? Free from money, fashion, politics, stupidity? People believe it is better to be free, they value freedom greatly. Freedom from what? Is freedom of being owned also a part of the freedom definition? Is there any freedom in being a slave?
You are a slave to what you obey. i call myself a slave of Goddess Gina. But do i obey my desire to serve to the most beautiful Woman i know? Or do i obey Goddess Gina and that makes me a real slave, Her slave? Time and Goddess Gina will tell. Now i just know i love Her and i want to do everything i can to make Her happy.

Monday, February 13, 2012

From my dreams of Goddess GINA 3


My river runs to Thee:
Blue Sea, wilt Thou welcome me?


My river awaits reply.

Oh! Sea, look graciously!

i’ll fetch Thee brooks
from spotted nooks,

Say, Sea,
take me!

(Emily Dickinson, <1886)

Sunday, February 12, 2012

From my dreams of Goddess GINA 2


And in life's noisiest hour,
There whispers still the ceaseless love of Thee,

The heart's self-solace and soliloquy.

You mould my hopes, You fashion me within;
And to the leading love-throb in the heart
Thro' all my being, thro' my pulse's beat;
You lie in all my many thoughts, like light,

Like the fair light of dawn, or summer eve
On rippling stream, or cloud-reflecting lake.


And looking to the heaven, that bends above You,
How oft! i bless the lot that made me love You.

(
Samuel Taylor Coleridge, 1807)

Saturday, February 11, 2012

From my dreams of Goddess GINA 1


She walks in beauty, like the night

Of cloudless climes and starry skies;

And all that's best of dark and bright

Meet in Her aspect and Her eyes:

Thus mellowed to that tender light
Which heaven to gaudy day denies.

One shade the more, one ray the less,
Had half impaired the nameless grace

Which waves in every raven tress,

Or softly lightens o'er Her face;
Where thoughts serenely sweet express

How pure, how dear their dwelling place.

And on that cheek, and o'er that brow,

So soft, so calm, yet eloquent,

The smiles that win, the tints that glow,
But tell of days in Goodness spent,

A mind at peace with all below,

A heart whose love is innocent!

(Lord Byron, 1814)

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

The Power of Women

Since the down of civilization men celebrated the power of Women. Even the Bible, the Good Book, includes many stories of strong Women winning over men. Sex, violence and supernatural happenings were always important sources of inspirations for visual artists. The pictorial and narrative excitement of biblical Women's narratives, full of sexual sentiment, has been interpreted in many different ways over the ages.
The Fall of Man

Netherlandish prints of the 16th century gave viewers not only new ways of relating to Scripture, but also allowed ordinary people to buy such items to use in their homes for their own "devotional purposes".  No surprise the series dedicated to the "Power of Women" have been very popular. Captioned with a quotation from Ecclesiasticus: "All evil is small in comparison to the evil of a Woman", the prints should also illustrate Women's ability to make fools of even the wisest and most powerful men.
Salome
Lucas van Leyden (1494-1533), a Dutch engraver and painter, created two series of woodcuts (The Large Power of Women in 1514 and The Small Power of Women in 1517) and several engravings of the theme. He also included picture of Virgil in a basket into his series. According to legend, Virgil fell in love with the Roman emperor's Daughter. She promised to raise him in Her bedroom in a basket, but left him dangling halfway to be mocked by passersby the following day.
Poet Virgil Suspended in a Basket

Solomon's Idolatry
Philips Galle (1537-1612), Dutch engraver, designer and printmaker, published around 1569 a series called The Power of Women.
Jael slaying Sisera
Judith slaying Holofernes
Samson and Delilah
Classical interpretation of these images would be a warning against the destructive power of Women. They are no longer the abstract type of Virgin, Women on these pictures are transformed into vengeful, bloodthirsty creatures. However, such explanation ignores explicit erotism and masochistic pleasure embodied in these pictures.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Reader's Diary (Week 5)

Thou sensual, supersensual libertine, a little Girl can lead thee by the nose.
(Goethe, 1808)